Blog 1: Introduction

CREATIVE WRITING    

     When I'm hungry, I order too much. I'm currently sitting in Asian Fusion, and hating myself as I look down at the 1/4th eaten plate of sweet and sour chicken.  Never go to a food establishment alone, you are bound to order too much.
     My name is Kally. I have a dry sense of humor, maybe just a dry personality. Sarcasm is a natural tendency of mine. This can become an issue when I am writing, mostly because sarcastic writing is hard to pick up on unless spoken out loud. Writing reminds me of drawing. It is just as difficult, taking eight drafts for one somewhat good product. It is creative, is vulnerable, conveys a message, brings laughter, harbors sadness, invokes every emotion but also no emotion at all. There are great artists, great writers, bad artists, bad writers. Writing is art.
     It is hard to let myself go in my art. Exposing myself to whoever is willing to listen. If the world wasn't aware of my emotions and vulnerabilities, I would feel safe. However, that is the very reason why I force myself to write. Writing lets me let loose those repressed emotions, but in secret. Almost like a therapist. haha. My biggest issue with creative writing is choosing a topic.
It needs to be powerful, impactful….I want it to be timeless. I don’t want a reader to be selected by my topic. Maybe I am doing that without knowing it. Should I write about something so small as a leaf, or the hairs on my arm. Going to the other extreme, I could write about something humongous, like the Idea of Freedom, or my ego. No matter what, I would hate to be cliché. My head hurts.
I have many stories, but no skills to convey the emotions within my brain. I can’t seem to fathom writing a story, or what I figure as a story. My ideas are flat, like an infinite flat plane of points on a graph, every point a new topic that I wish to address. I need to realize how to “connect the dots” and create a universal shape. Whether it is a heart, a circle, a trapezoid, who cares?
The left side of my brain hurts, but my right is calm. People say that I am a “right-brained” thinker, because right- brain thinking supposedly deals with creativity, whereas the left-brain is logic and processes. They are not in sync. Honestly I get angry when others assume that I am a creative. Or I get labeled as that one girl, “She wants to draw me a picture because she is a talented artist”.  Secretly I am very realistic and possibly cynical. I can imagine two sides in my head, two personalities. A war between my personalities. Back and forth they spew ideas at each other.  They never match up to a common notion. That’s why I stay away from creative writing.
     That is one type of writing. I need it, but I hate it. I enjoy writing clinically or in research. I like to think of myself as open minded. However, I love to debate, ponder, analyze, observe and transcribe those dissertations.  My current aspirations in these next four years at UNL will be geared towards going to law school. Therefore, any practice in rhetorical and critical thinking is integral. People say law isn't a school of fact, it is a school of thought. Professors teach you to think a certain way and to consider all circumstances and possibilities. Critical and persuasive writing are my favorite because not only do I become more educated because of research, I learn to take what I see and make conclusions. Which is, what I believe, one quality of a successful person, no matter what success means to that individual.
     Thinking about it, this blog is my first ever homework assignment for college. Oh no.